As I moved away...

So since my last post alot has happened ...

New haircuts - 1
Weeks spent at uni - 2
Number of new friends made - 4
Number of nights consuming alcohol - 1
Number of lectures - 4
Pieces of work been given to do - 7

Number of times spent stressing out - too many to count.

Time spent being me - all the time.

Hugging is good medicine.

It transfers energy and gives the person hugged an emotional lift. You need four hugs a day for survival, eight for maintenance, and twelve for growth. Scientists say that hugging is a form of communication because it can say things you don't have the words for. And the nicest thing about a hug is that you usually can't give one without getting one.

Patience is a Virtue, but waiting is boring.

Well I have been patient enough, its been just under 2 months since my last exam, and today is results day.
I stupidly thought of the worst and looked at places on clearing to do fine art. There were alot. But I didn't want to go to any of them. I want to go to Worcester!! I WANT MY HAPPY ENDING!! Surely I deserve it after everything that has happened this year? The things I have battled with, for the past 2 years, giving up my life to practically live in the art room to get my work up to scratch this year after the disaster last time.
I remeber last year a sleepless plane jouney as I returned home with my mum from Holiday, getting my results, walking to the car and breaking down. And tonight is looking similar so far with the sleepless night, infact my alarm will be going off in just over 4 hours to wake me up, yes I want to be on track as soon as it is up. I do not care if they say it won't be online untill 8, I will be on there at half 6 ready to keep refreshing the page from about 7!! I just hope that what I see on screen will be different to that of last year.
So Patience is a virtue, but waiting is boring. Now I'm done with both so hurry the hell up and telll me!!

I’m Naomi. Just Naomi. Maybe thats enough. I know it should be. I hope it will be. I’m a work in progress. But whatever I am. Whoever I am. I deserve to be happy.

Hiding

I'm hiding a big part of me.
Something your not allowed to see.
It eats me up.
And breaks me down.
But I am not supposed to frown.
So I cover it up.
Then you can't see.
That I'm hiding a big part of me.

I'm Okay ...

... Is that what I'm supposed to say??

A Mistake is Only a Mistake if You Make it More Than Once.

Well then this is only hell of a big mistake.
And I will look at it every day.

Bye bye Ripon College.

So, I may have set fire to my school skirt ...

So I have finally left Ripon College. And it has been two long years of different emotions. Although my experiance of 6th form may not have been the best in the past year, I am going to miss the crap hole that I call a school. So some of it may not have been the best, E.g. finding out what kind of a 'friend' your friend actually was. But some have been the best.
I kinda don't want it to end. But I know that it already has. I finished all my lessons and exams, we said goodbye to everybody, next years 6th formers have already had their induction day, and in 2 weeks time, everyone will have probably been forgotten about. Gone.
So what happens now ?? Well I now have the option of been a keen bean and earning some dollar before I go off to uni, or being a bum for the next 2 and a half months. I know which one I would prefer to do. But please, bring on the next 3 years of student life, living it large in .... Worcester.

It's been a while, but this ones only quick.

Life is shit. Then you die ...

Perhaps I Should Learn How To Spell University

So my first day of the hectic stressfullness that is this week, is complete. Now all I have to do is tackle the other 3 oncoming days. Tomorrow there will be the not so lovely theory test. I just hope that I actually pass it !! The day after I am taking a trip down to coventry, for a ever so exciting and scary univercity interview.
Then for the final day of my hectic and stressfull 4 days, I have yet another univercity interview. But this time at Worcester (Oh how I love Worcester!!). And then bliss will happen on Friday, where I will get to spend 3 hours in my favorite room in the school, the art room. Making BADGES !! Jelous much ?!? So yeah. then for the wonderfullness that is called 'half term'. WIN !! Now all I have to do, if get through it in one piece.

Ahhhhh !!

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Just Freak Out Let It Go ...

So lately I have been quite relaxed about everything, but then suddenly today, with the looming university interviews this coming week, the theory test, and meeting new people, tonight, I have just lost it. And now I am just having a complete and utter stress (Oh and Emma, if you read this, I do appologise for snaping at you today, I got a bit stressed) over the fact that I realised that I will be leaving school in 18 weeks and 5 days (I think). Which is a very strange thing to think about. As although I hate that shit-hole of a school I go to, my life has revolved around that shit-hole for the past 7 years of my life. With some of the best people I could have imagined being with, and as I take my first big steps into the wide world next week, I just wonder how the hell I am going to cope. But lets think of this coming week as an amazing challenge that is either going to make me, or break me. So just throw anything at me, I think I am ready for it. now enjoy a photo of me and my 'McBezzin' taking some strange photos at school :/.

As life goes on ...

So Everythings changing, and for the better I hope. As people leave my life, new people are coming into my life. I am getting the interviews at the Teesside Uni, Conventry Uni and the University of Worcester. Leeds College of Art have also asked for me to send photos of my work to them. And the only place I haven't heard from is Chester. But 4/5 sofar 'aint half bad really is it ?? But just as the stress leaves, it slowly creeps back in with the thought of my two Art exams that come out in February. I can see february being an exciting month, but being scary at the same time. With interviews, deadlines, exams etc ... But I just have to remeber to keep my chin up (just not too high otherwise I may fall over) So things are changing. Thats a good thing, right ??

And my mind keeps spinning.

So I have been back at school 3 days, and had 2 days off. But I'm not sure which of the days have been better. On the days at school I have been reunited with my Bezzin, and am so close to finishing one of my art projects, but then with extra maths lessons. Then the days off have been hell due to science coursework. So an overall stressed mind boggling experiance going on at the moment. I have also taken a big step into the big wide world by sending off my UCAS stuff a couple of days ago. I don't know what can be more terrifying at the moment. Well there is one thing, but I am not going to broadcast that over the internet now am I ?!?

I fell over and it just kind of happened ... sorry.

Well the big news of today is that there has been an earthquake. But it hasn't exactly done anything has it ?? Everyone is saying how scared they were, I was just confused about what the hell it was. It wasn't exactly life threatening you know, but I will sit here and watch all the facebook statuses go on about how everyone 'poo-ed themselves.' In other news, I think that I have got to the point where the stress starts to kick in. In about 33 hours I will be back in the prison that we call a sixth form. As the day went on, Wendesday just seemed to get closer and closer (despite the fact that it actually did.) So I will tomorrow be frantically trying to do all the work that I should have done instead of sleeping till rediculous times in the day. The next few days are going to be pretty interesting. I'm not sure if i am going to be killed by teachers for not doing the work that they told me to do over the christmas holidays because I hadn't done it before then, or if I am even going to be able to sit through one of the lessons without me ending in my cube in the art room. I am not sure how I am going to handle going back, but I am going to try and handle it in a positive way, which as you may be able to tell by my blog is a hard thing to do. But lets see how it goes.

Well, I didn't see that one coming.

Well, it was the christmas holidays, I had a few days rest, I started on the school work, and suddenly its apparently 2011, when at about 4 o'clock it hits me that it's January. I don't know how I didn't realise that it was January, it was actually J-A-N-U-A-R-Y the month of exams and stress, oh not to mention the incomplete UCAS that has to be done in 13 days. Back to school in 3 days. I'm not stressed about going back. Just the actuall going to lessons. With revision that hasn't quite been done, and the coursework that actually hasn't been done. This is going to be a great month isn't it :/